A LASTING LOVE AFFAIR

I am in love with you and l can't explain it

I just know thinking about it brings tears to my eyes

Thoughts about you bring warmth to my heart

They bring a profound feeling of beautiful satisfaction

I am in love with you but l can't explain it

I just know

I sit in Your presence and hear Your children sing

I hear them worship and beautifully praise You

With the Knowledge that your children accompany

The Cherubims, Seraphims and the 24 elders who stand before you day and night

I am so mesmerized in Your presence

I feel broken yet whole because l know You

I am in love with You but l can't explain it

Because truth is....l can't

You overwhelm me with the essence of You

Who are You?What are You? I have this love affair with You

Yet l can never totally grasp You

I can never understand You because You are God

Who am I for You to love like You do? So intensely, so genuinely, so jealously

Who am l that You have commanded angels to be at my service?

You overwhelm me with the essence of You

I am deeply in love with You

Even though l can only love You with my earthly understanding limited way

I am in love with You but l can't explain it

Because truth is ....I can't

I want this love affair to go for eternity

aaaaahhh I want those that watch on the side to say

Indeed that is a love affair

I am in love with You

It is not what You do, though that is part of it

But the essence of You, the beauty of You

The knowing that l am loved and cherished Just as l am

I am so in love with You, You the creator of the universe

I am in love with You but l can't explain it

Because truth is....I can't

I am in love with You and that thought

That thought brings warm tears to my eyes

You...I am in Love with You

C'EST LA VIE

I am reading my last entry and l am all smiles. Cynical about God?!Really??? Hmmm!!! I thank God that that phase was part of my life.Now l know how gratefulness starts.I am really grateful to Him that when things really got rough l stayed in the presence of God.God has our solutions.He brings solutions.He grants us brilliance to maneuver out of life's messes and then some.

Now l am at a place where l trust Him completely.I don't get smart with Him.I just trust. Trust me,life has never been this better. I guess l needed to go through that cynicism stage for me to get here.I want to stay here. A place dreams are realized because He is in control. A place of comfort, trust, beauty and grace.

UNCHARTED WATERS

I have not been here before. I have become cynical towards life, God, love among other things.I don't know when l got here.I just know l am.I need to get out of here though.I need to get to a place where l have a better outlook on life.I don't know if it is because l have been trusting God for a number of things and have waited for so long.I need to get out of this moment that is so stressful.I hear people say that someone became an overnight sensation.What crap!!! By the time those dreams come to pass, you have died a thousand deaths,lost hope and gotten back.Plus life loses its meaning.So you go back to where you started and hope that your dreams will come to pass.

I need to get back to where l dreamt big dreams and knew it would actually come to pass.How do people go through this stage and live to tell about it in a victorious session? I guess that is where my journey will start.

You still have the thunder girl!!!

Wassup!!! Today l spoke to someone who was referred to me by a friend.Oh!! my friend went on about something until this person said...ok lets call her up.

Anyways, what really got me was that this person,who l have never met, reminded me how it used to be when l was psyched up doing fundraising and communications.

Lately,that is up to like 2 hours ago, l have been having those moments that are called discouraging.Hmmm!!! l never had a lot of those.But the gist of this share is that l am now feeling alive.Is it because they just believed l could do this insurmountable task or what?I can't quite put my little finger on it.All l know is that l have gotten challenged to stop laxing,to stop giving excuses and stop acting like the rest of the crowd.

This is when l know God surely loves me. That at your end He sends someone to remind you that you still have the thunder in your spirit.That you can still achieve your dreams no matter how idealistic they seem to be.And for that...l am grateful...truly grateful.